Sif-Lina Ankergaard: DOODLES
Danish artist Sif Ankergård studied her BA of fine art in Amsterdam at the Gerrit Rietveld Academy. Were after she retuned to Scandinavia and is currently a student at the masters programme at KHIB. Were she is engaging in a study of sculpture and artists writings from which you will see a work about doodles at Gallery Fisk.
To engage with such intimacy in a text is to eavesdrop on my own thoughts, an act of shame, guilt, fear, heightened curiosity, sexual excitement. Stories may function as the trigger to eavesdropping, yet we know (or assume) they are fictitious. The voice as voice – a negotiation of pitch and time, a complex texture of text – reveals all. Who is hidden with in the voice is irrelevant, who is hidden within the reader of the voice?
Sometimes I start off with an idea, which fits into... no I always start off with a sentence. A sentence that intrigues me, annoys me, tickles my arrogance. Then I fit it into a narrative. Not in a anecdotal sense, but in to a conceptual / contextual one. The picture/image changes true the process of drawing – of daydreaming and of writing and re-writing the lines. I work on the same drawing over many sessions. Linking many moments together in one doodle. Like thoughts the lines are always linked somehow. The texts are thoughts that gets drawn out as lines and sentences. Usually on the fictive paper of my macbook. I trace them out in lines of words. It feels a bit like tracing a picture true a pergament paper.
I'd start daydreaming and draw over the lines and figures of the text I already have written, again, with new sentences and words, causing strange things to happen to them. new images assembled out of the landscape I see, when I allow my thoughts to start running. I do this quite purposefully and I revisit a text many time, in order to allow new combinations of mindsets to integrate in the text. It is a structure and method that allows me to create a drawing rater than a cohesive story. The thoughts and lines of text of many different things, independent but together on the same paper. Like a drawing is composed of many little pencil marks ordered in a certain relation to each other.
Mind-doodles very much structured the the same way as the doodles of pen lines created wile on the phone, or in the margins of my school books when I was 15. now these doodles have taken up a new life in my literary explorations, and become the structural back drop for a form of essayistic writing that I can not help myself from making, the happen when I turn my mind on autopilot. And I have adopted this into my toolbox as a technique for writing. I have started arranging and structuring my life rhythms around this, the time I get up and the places I go. I have disappeared into my own doodles. Or rather the doodles have grown and taken over the space of my days and affected my structure with a strangely rigid and rhythmical form contradicting the roundedness of the line of the doodles.
